I’ve been through quite a lot. The year 2013 has been…..well……..rocky. I’ve been through Hell and back. But I’ve somehow managed to not get burned completely. Looking back on it; every heartbreak, every disappointment, every bad day (that at the moment I swear felt like a bad life, if you know what I mean) has made me stronger. Which shouldn’t be surprising because after all they do say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. And I’m not going to lie, there WERE some days when I felt like “FUCK EVERYTHING, I’M DONE WITH LIFE” or was like “GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD, I CAN’T DEAL”. And it’s not completely better. It’s still a little hard. It’s still a little lonely. But I’ve learned to take things one step at a time. I’ve learned to smile even when you so desperately want to cry. To laugh when you just want to scream from the very top of your lungs. To breathe even when you feel the air has literally been knocked from your lungs. To be suckishly patient when you just want time to hurry the fuck up and pass you by. To trust even when you feel everyone keeps breaking it. To keep calm and calm the fuck down sometimes. To not be afriad to be your beatiful fucking self. And how to look at the world in color instead of greys and blacks. I’m being to love myself for who I am. Because everyone is different, and everyone will experience things at different times. Noone is the same. But everyone is beautiful. So FUCK in ALL CAPS what anyone else thinks or says. You’re fucking perfect as you are. So be beautifully BOLD, fiercely FREE, crazyily COURAGOUS, wonderful WILD, and youthful YOUNG. Be yourself. Love yourself. And let yourself go.
- signed at peace with myself (at the moment)